Words bounce around in my head. Thinking ahead for a conversation I might have with someone later. Reliving a conversation I have already had. Imagining scenarios that will probably never happen. A text I need to send. A reminder to myself. Sometimes the words show up blurry, as an idea develops. Certain words swirl around… Continue reading Why Do I Write?
I want to soak in this time: slowly, thankfully. I know God is doing big things. I have time to spend on my prayer and Bible reading. I am with the people I love the most all the time. We are safe. But even though I am thankful for these things, I still grow impatient… Continue reading The View
The pain had not ceased for a week. I had played phone tag with my doctor’s office, been laid up on the couch or in my bed, writhed in pain on multiple occasions… all with the same mantra: I can’t go to the hospital, not now, not now. As my husband drove me to that… Continue reading Yes, I Had Emergency Surgery During a Pandemic
I had to get out. I needed the sun on my face, I needed the open space of the outdoors. And although I hate running, I needed to run. My legs longed to stretch and my lungs to expand with the cool but welcoming air. I felt the burn in my lungs from pushing them… Continue reading The King is Surely Coming
Monday March 16, 2020 First day of Arndt Academy/Work from home due to COVID-19 We made it until 3:00pm! I had been mentally bracing myself for the last few days. Things seemed to be snowballing very quickly. I wasn’t paying much attention to the news about the virus. The most attention it had gotten from… Continue reading God, Our Refuge
Frantically cleaning in preparation for my Mama coming to town, I heaved the vacuum cleaner down each step of the staircase. After the complete gutting and remodelling of the upstairs bathroom, the flight of stairs was covered in crumbled drywall, little boy dirt, and most certainly dog hair. I know full well my Mama doesn’t… Continue reading The Splinter
“The human heart would rather hear lies that bring comfort than truths that bring conviction and cleansing.” Warren Wiersbe, Be Reverent: Bowing Before an Awesome God (Ezekiel commentary) As I read these words in my study of Ezekiel, the truth and profoundness of this statement hit me like a wave. I keep returning to it,… Continue reading The Heart
A car swerves in and forces its way in front of me on the highway. Someone in the grocery store express lane has 20 items instead of 10. A parent breaks the rules in the school pickup line. Someone sends their kid to school the day after they have vomited from a stomach virus. A… Continue reading Fixated
It’s slow work, rebuilding. Making sure each cut is the exact correct measurement, each board, each wall. Placing screws in the proper place so that everything is solid, anchored. Each stage is important, every step in the process is vital to the end goal. If you move too quickly, rushing ahead to the next phase,… Continue reading Long, Slow, Work.
Last month, we traveled to spend time with family, then we welcomed family and friends to gather in our home for Christmas. Our home was host to 11 overnight guests and 25 total for Christmas brunch and supper. This in itself was a miracle since just a few weeks before this, we were protected from… Continue reading 2019 Reflection and a Look Ahead
I know my usual writing comes from my “boy mama” perspective. Today I have been thinking about a stage that is (hopefully) far in the future. To my boys, and the girls you will someday date: Take a moment and try to benefit from my heartaches and mistakes. I know the need to feel loved.… Continue reading A letter for the FAR future