(Written in 2015)
Today I celebrate 8 years of marriage with the man I love. Over thirteen years ago we started dating. There always felt like there was uncertainty in our relationship, prior to us getting engaged. I never knew for sure that he really wanted to be with me. There was one time we broke up, and I was devastated. At this point I don’t even remember the details, but I remember a conversation we had after the break-up. I don’t think Stefan even remembers it, but it was significant to me. I don’t recall what we said, but I just felt like I saw the man he truly is, in the conversation. I got a glimpse into the future, and saw what God could do with this man. It seemed like I was the only one at the time, who believed in our relationship, and thought that we had a future together. It’s taken me twelve years to get the courage to share it, even with Stefan. This, is what I wrote.
Glimmer
All hope is lost,
All chances gone,
but I will wait for it…
it will come.
Paralyzed heart,
tear-soaked eyes,
I know it’s there,
why can’t I see it?
So I wait…
for it to come.
Choked by apathy,
drowned by disappointment,
I can’t take much more…
but it will come.
Then-
Despite the exhaustion in my soul,
I see it…
glimmer.
Invisible to all eyes but mine…
it has come.
Covered by a mask of control,
from behind hard lines it comes…
my glimmer.
I know it is not much,
but I will wait.
For from my glimmer
the sun will emerge,
and I will sit.
Eyes closed…
no more waiting,
because I know
my glimmer
has finally
come.